To our dearest friend Misato...

It's times like this I know that my problems...not so much an issue. We tend to just focus on ourselves and let the world pass us by. As cliche as it sounds, you know it, I know it, we all know it's true (just realizing that I am incapable of putting the weird squiggly marks on the letters...hmmm?).

It goes to show that perhaps my personal relationship issues and paranoia is NOT something I should think about at the moment. Granted I am REALLY GOOD at solving other people's issues and problems, I am really bad with my own. I have the tendency to ruin everything and anything good in my life (much like my relationship with Tim which totally is hanging by a thread because of my psychotic-ness), and I have an issue with trust. Misato reassured me the other day that my paranoia in fact is just PARANOIA and that Tim is probably busy and not ignoring me or planning to totally dump me. After a 5 year relationship with him I should know better right? But then again she told me from her experience that guys just needs space...honestly I could totally tell other people this but to myself I just let my crazy run wild and think the worst.

Alas this is not about me but Misato so getting back to the point. She is one of the strongest person I know not only for her willingness to get out to the world, but mentally she's a lot stronger than most people. Being sick hasn't stopped her from living life (where as I just stop functioning all together). She also finds the time to gather us girls together for drinks between her treatments. She, KY, and D are probably my best girl friends in Japan. Without them I would be drowning in my sorrows and attempting to not socialize living like a hermit and one day just being on the 6pm news like yesterday's trash. But they have kept me going and hanging out with the real world instead of hermitting in the gaming world like I usually do.

Misato has been my Kansai connection and the one of the few people that don't think I am a total whack job. By the way in my life totally rare and REALLY important. Even my own brother thinks I ought to be committed. Granted she thought I was totally Anime with my high pitch voice and really weird hobbies...she took me in like I've been there all the while and we've been friends since. There are friends...and there are "FRIENDS". What's the difference? Friends are those who you associate with, just because. FRIENDS are those who will be with you thick and thin. No matter what happens they are the ones that will stick by your side. Misato has my loyalty and no matter what I will forever be there for her like I will with KY and D. D is busy with a life work bf what not, but we all know she is always there for us in the time of need. KY is probably one of the few people I see most and we are at a mutual understanding to be all that we can be! (not in the army...but hey) Misato should always remember that we are there for her no matter what.

We all tend to take advantage of the things we have. Be it our relationships, friendship, family, and especially our health. When someone close to you gets ill we finally realize the things we take for advantage. KY, D and I can't really share our health with our dear friend...unfortunately so the only thing we can do is send positive vibes, tell her more random stories for her to be amused, and plan out future events we all could do. There's so much more we need to get done...like a trip to Karuizawa (which should be Legend-wait for it-Dary)...playing around in Disney Land/Sea...also I have to par take in the girls trip I keep hearing so much about! And another thing...I finally have enough girl friends to not have my guy buds dress in drag at my wedding as brides maids. You (yes you Misato) better not forget that you have a place on my side of the podium if I get married!! AND ANOTHER THING...you totally promised I get to make a speech at your wedding and perhaps be the MC!

I am keeping you to your word!!

We are all out here missing you and rooting for your return! I have my Cheesecake recipe ready and warm for when you come back! Also of course my Foundant Chocolat Recipe! You are dearly missed and needed in our lives. Just remember...you get to stay in a clean room! MY DREAM!! Make sure to tell me the cleanliness....when you see me again because I would totally want to live in one...aha!

Life is Short, Break the Rules, Forgive Quickly, Kiss Slowly, Love Truly, Laugh Uncontrollably, and NEVER regret anything that made you smile. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we might as well DANCE!